4:21 AM
Monday, December 10, 2007
Moody Christmas post. AHA!
Just when I thought time flies so fast, now it's taking time for time to fly. What the hell... I still have two more weeks before I can finally lay aside my 2007 planner, one more week to prepare for next week's exams, a few more days to save enough money for gift shopping, and a few more hours to shed the unnecessary flab on my belly, which I recklessly accumulated during the past few weeks of December [raisin breads are yum, I tell you]. Sod it. I want my well-earned time off NOW.
Last week was the busiest December week I had so far. I was barraged with endless theme papers and homeworks that deserved big-time rushing, meetings here and there, pointless competitions, friendship feuds, and culpable loner days. Basically, I had a major mental, physical, and emotional stress last week, and if it wasn't for that person who brought me under the star-filled night sky at the seaside last Saturday, I'd be dead by now. No shit, someone so sweet really did that for me. Ssshhh...
Anyway, I'm done with my gifts list, and since it's not a very good idea to post it here, I think it would be better if I post my very own Christmas Wish list instead. Sole purpose of posting this is well, I just want to share it. And just in case you're feeling a teeny charitable and bighearted this year... *hint* *hint* ;p
In Random:
1. 2008 Planner; No pocket-sized planners please.
2. 2GB Micro-SD memory card for my phone [I know a place where you can buy this at 1,500php... HAHA]
3. A salon treatment [MEHN!]
4. Shopaholic and Baby book by Sophie Kinsella
5. Original CDs of any of the following artists: The Click Five, Jojo, Paramore, Howie Day, Josh Groban, Ashley Tisdale, Katharine McPhee, Rihanna, ETC.
6. A Christmas job, whatthe.
7. Out-of-town trip
8. BAGs [any color will do]
9. FlipFlops [35-36 / 5-6]
10. Cocktail rings
11. Graphic tees
12. Whole-day Movie marathon
13. Quality ME-time
14. Loads of Peace, Joy, and LOVE =))
Since I still have 2 weeks to go before the break, I might as well do anything to stop feeling sucked up and tamad. May exams pa ko, for crying out loud and it's not helping that I'm not taking academic stuffs seriously just because vacation's nearing. In fact, I must have the oomph to attend remaining schooldays since my allowance is given on a daily basis-- I sure could use that... =)
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HONESTLY...
Things aren't really smooth these days, but I can say that, somehow I am and I can be happy.
... Because I'm at the point where even if everything seems to be in an honest wreckage, something within me would tell me that I must not let the negative things going on around me impinge on me even if I'm quite a part of it. People may say bad stuff about me, people may pull me down, and I'll be like... do whatever you want, I don't care. I have a life. And life is good.
All I ever care about now are ... well, the positives going on in my life. And so far, I'm doing great,. If Hurt can get through me in just a snap before, now I can silently get through Hurt and pissed him off sadistically without being impure. Ha-di-ha.
And all these I learned from "someone". I'm so grateful that I met that someone, coz if not for that someone, I wouldn't be emotionally at ease, and genuinely happy today. That someone never fails to give me the strength, and inspiration I need to go on with my life. That someone taught me to go on and do things rather than lament not doing it-- coz not doing the things you could have done is the biggest regret you can ever have in your life. It takes a lot of courage and guts, I know, and I got it almost all from that someone.
If I don't seem to care about things I must care about, I'm sorry. I have my mind to blame. And I have my heart to go behind. Things will be always be fine, I know, as long as I have that someone alongside with my most loved people in the world-- God-family-and-friends, to support and love me.
Sigh....
I miss you...
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ON A LIGHTER NOTE,
15 days to go before Christmas.. and
this is the season TO BE JOLLY. RightRightRight?!
FRA LA LA LA LA, LA LA LA LA.... =))
3:35 AM
Sunday, December 2, 2007
Buurrr... Every night, before I go to sleep, I make it a point to prepare for the frosty sunup ahead-- piling up on clothes, sweaters, blankets, surrounding my body with pillows and even with big stuffed toys and turning off any air coolers around, so I wouldn't wake up trembling and be caught red-handed when the cold wind strikes. I don't know but as I do these things, I feel a tiny spasm of thrill and veiled ecstasy inside. It's as if I'm excited about chilly mornings. Chilly... cold... DECEMBER mornings...
Can you believe it?! It's like, it was just yesterday when I was blabbering about academic stresses and how
fuckingly amazing that Mr. Lombardini turned out to be the most pitiful jerk ever [woops!] and now look, it's already December and
Christmas is just around the corner! Scary that I sound like a whimsical kiddie magazine in here, but what do you expect, the red fairy decided to pay me an early visit.
My friends and some relatives can attest to the fact that I'm a full-time aficionada of the Christmas Season. If there are Christmas elves and reindeers and there's Mr. Snowman and there's Mr. Santa Claus and there's Mrs. Claus, then I'm the...
Claus family's pet dog. HAHA. Alright, don't react just yet. I am not debasing myself for that matter. See, dogs are men's best friend, and I'm Santa's pet dog [so I say] therefore,
I am Santa's best friend. HAHA.
Asa. Which ends up everything to the plain truth that yes, I'm still a huge sucker for Christmas. LABO.
When December 01 hit the calendar, morning that day I was so hyper that at five in the morning I sounded like a loud, annoying talking alarm clock screaming,
DECEMBER NA! Sana Simbang Gabi naaaaa!!!! I remember not minding how low the room temperature was at that time, because all I ever cared at that moment was that it's December and no sooner, it'll be Christmas. Say I'm OA. I really am, the ETCH you care? ;p
Come on fudgers, I know you feel the same way, too. I know you feel light-hearted and unexplainably happy right now. I know you're gradually feeling the season's calm, humble, and peaceful atmosphere. You know, every time I walk along downtown and see shops selling huge Christmas lanterns and decos particularly at night, I can't help but stop and do my ''
awwwww..."-thing. Even when I'm alone, even when I'm so
ngarag, I really stop in front of the store and gaze at the Xmas thingies and be amazed how the lantern lights change from blue to red to yellow, and how those little lights seem to dance simultaneously with its monophonic music. Then there would be the Christmas songs played almost everywhere! In the bus, at coffeehouses, at swanky and cheap restos, at the mall, ANYWHERE! And it all just make you feel how lovely would it then be if everyday is Christmas, right?
I haven't really planned out yet for the whole month of December up til New Year [SHAKS!], but I have loads of things in mind-- things to do, to make, and to accomplish. But I have to worry not cos I have all the time to plan what I really want to get done this year. Since this will be my last Christmas as a High School stude, then definitely I would really make this Christmas
extra special.
My friends and loved ones are lucky to have me this season, I tell you. HAHA.
I'm so looking forward to parties, children singing Christmas jingles at our gates at night, more Christmas decos and songs, better movies, CHRISTMAS SALES, gift ideas, cards and Christmas wrappers, puto bumbong and bibingkas, Noche Buena, Fireworks, MORE pictures, More smiles, zero tears, and loads of LOOOOOVEEEE.... =)
