A Pack of Sweet MnMs

What better way to recuperate from a droopy blogging syndrome than by drinking a hot chocolate drink done in your much loved personalized mug is ... well doing a sloppy blog update. An almost month-long break is no joke, what do you expect?!

So far, cupcakes, I've been fine. I've been fine because God and Fate have been so good to me. I surpassed the November stress baby! And thank God, USTET wasn't a complete drudge.


In fact, I felt not a single pressure while taking the hoping-to-pass-it test, well except maybe for the testing room's heat, which made me feel damp and icky. Wonder why they have to delay the air-condition installation in the DS' self-proclaimed hottest room--4SD which, unfortunately, is our domicile for 6 months now--, well in fact they could just throw in some hunks in there who can make a big rectangular opening, can set the air conditioner right, and if lucky can be as hot as Braddy so whoever he may be might get an amiable kiss from SD's muse. And if ever I see a Chris-Evans-hunk, I'll take him home. HAHA. Sweet.

ANYWAY, the exam was, not to brag or anything, easy peasy mimsy as dipsy piece of cupcake sprinkled with ground MnMs. Most of the test questions were no longer new to us since they were more or less the same questions we were answering in our review handouts during our review days. I'm not saying there was a leakage, though. Coincidental, I guess?

HAHA. BAKA KASI MAY NAGBABASA NG BLOG KO NA HINDI TAGA-DS, JUMBAGIN PA KO. ;p

Another thing to be joyous about is the result of my academic performance for the second quarter. I wasn't really expecting to be a notch higher on my class ranking since I was so occupied with lots of extra-curricular activities last quarter, in fact, I was expecting myself to be booted out from the top list. However, my grades proved my inkling wrong. My grades in all subjects made my jaw dropped down six feet under, I mean, higher grades in all subjects? UNBELIEVABLE. Uhm, inspired?

Miss Man-hater finally found The Inspiration? Well...

And oi, got the results of our NCAE already, and yes baby, I passed! I got 99!!! HAHA. I'm gonna go to college baby!!!!! So the only thing to cross fingers for now are my college EE results..

Anyway...

You know what is that one thing [well, one of the THINGS actually] that's making my life extraordinarily happier right now? That simply is that I get to spend time with loads of friends and new people, without having to question anything. You simply hang out spontaneously and have fun. I'm also embracing the fact that I'm over my metamorphosis period, coz I swear, I did become an instant social butterfly when I met... I mean, when I learned how to overcome all the negativities I once had in life, and fell in love with interacting with different people.

I've learned how to avoid judging people at once. Like that guy who did my Guitar Henna last last week, he looked pretty creepy and weird really at first-- he's got all these weird piercing all over his face, and weird tattoos on his body. I know some of my friends felt off when they first saw him, to the point where some of them chose to abscond from the scene. I admit, at first I thought he was bastos, but when I let him do my henna, I almost choked. He was nice, he wasn't the guy I thought he was. In fact, he was so gentle you could just put your trust to him. :P

And oh yes yes yes, nagpa-henna ako. And hindi lang siya basta basta trip lang pero.

Since tattoos aren't really allowed in both sides of the family, I can only do plain any-pen-to-skin drawing, to tig-pipiso tattoos where you just rub the other side of the paper with a coin or with a little water to transfer the tattoo, up til' henna tattoos only. In short, no permanent inks allowed. My family is conservative, thanks. Anyhoo, having henna-tattooed for the first time felt great, especially because the figure I asked the guy to do really means a lot to me.

I think the reason's pretty obvious naman na diba? Guitar-- sure, MUSIC. Blah blah. Rocker. Blah blah. But more than the apparent reasons, looking behind the picture, I see it as a stepping stone to steering away from all the fears and doubts. The moment I had it, I knew something's gonna change. Something's gonna grow. And something's gonna happen.

I'm not sure what is that something, though. I'm just sure it's gonna take place in due course. And I'm happy-- whatever it might be.

Obviously, ladies and gentlemen, I do watch Miami Ink on Travel and Living Channel. HAHAHA.

So there. Lots of happenings. Lots of lessons. Lots of comprehensions. All for almost a month of blog break. And what better way to end this than just putting a sluggish period is by giving you loads of humphaloompha love, love, love.

=)

P.K.A.I.K.


Have you ever been in a situation where you want something so bad, which you thought in the beginning was far from possible to get, then all of a sudden it's coming to you... you want to just seize it because you know it's something that would make you happy but you realized that the whole lot might be insanely wrong. Would you still go for it, take all the risks, and face the consequences? Or steer away from it, let fear get to you, and face no consequences?

As I'm telling everyone since last night.. I'm so confused. I'm so confused with certain things I'm not ready to spill to the public yet. Or if I would ever spill it to the public. Nahihiya akong magsalita, because I fear what people would have to say about it, would they judge me? Would they see me as a frantic stupid girl who doesn’t use her big lousy head?

I asked for certain people's advices, and they were all right. Like my "big sissy" said, "everything happens for a reason.. and it's all up to you to find that out"... I mean, yeah sure, everything happens for a reason indeed and whatever the reason behind what I'm going through these days, I hope it all ends up well. I know myself for being strong naman but what's happening? You know what is holding me back? It's fear. I have loads of things being feared about... and it's taking me so many attempts to build up my strength and kill all the fears I have.

I want to try go for it and face whatever consequences that come with it but I'm not sure if I'm ready. It's too risky, I tell you. And I really don't know if I could handle it or not.

It's true. I'm now ending up eating my own words. I was basically telling everyone certain things that's obviously convincing almost everyone.. then now, I'm going through what was what I was against before.

Ewan. I feel weak when it comes to this-that-must-not-be-named-yet. Nakakainis. Let's just pray na kung anu man maisipan kung gawin in the end, like my cousin Kath told me, I hope not to end up having regrets...

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For someone:

Hey you beautiful asshole who keeps on annoying me, who keeps on making fun of me, and you jerky who keeps me laughing every time we're together, THANK YOU. Thank you for accepting me. Thank you for teaching me things in life.

You know what's funny? You're the only person in the world who has ever hit me right at my weakest point. You hit me right then and there and then you did something to transform my weakness into a potentiality. Even I, myself, couldn't ever do what you did. And you know what, all the things that you told me last night has kept me uplifted. Why? Because you're the only person who sees me the way people don't. Even my parents or closest friends or family wouldn't have the guts to tell me what you told me.

I'm happy that in a short span of time, you've shown me genuine willingness to share what your life's like. I know I tend to annoy you almost all the time too, but hey, I love annoying you. Because you are fun, and you listen to me. You laugh at my corniest jokes and you're so sincere... again, NUTHEAD, THANK YOU SO MUCH! Thank you for the company. I really want to know you more pa... I'll always be around.

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HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! SINO YUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUN?!!!!


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PAHIRAM AKO CARD READER PLEASE? 4-SD, 4 SAG! uy.